I might be on hiatus for a bit. I’m going much the way of Kevin.
The Abyss overall has been taking it’s toll on me as late. I mentioned it briefly over at Robb’s place this morning. Seeing all the abuses and nanny state legislation the government has been doing as of late and the overall apathetic response of the general public and the media is depressing. Looking deep into the Abyss (reading the gun blogs, watching what is happening, and the response or lack thereof) it has be come obvious that the abyss is equivalent to a black hole. You see, hope and faith in your fellow man is sucked in to never be seen or heard from again. The longer you stare, the more miserable and depressed you get. No matter how hard you try, hope and faith are destroyed, squashed to a singularity so small it can never be seen again.
The wife still remains unemployed thanks to the ass hats at her previous job. She had a decent job in Moscow, but quit that one and took a job in Pullman mainly because the commute was better and no income tax for a state we don’t actually live in. After 4 weeks they fired her abruptly stating her disability as the excuse. I actually think it was the union that had her fired. She was the first one to ever challenge being forced to join the union. Couple that with how oddly abrupt the termination was: She was informed on Friday that she would be receiving training on Monday, Monday morning after being there for 2 hours she was told her services were no longer needed and she could either work the rest of her shift or leave immediately. No notice, no warning, nothing, it wasn’t even her boss who delivered the news. The person who did has since left the company along with many others. We’re squeaking by, but it’s stressful and infuriating. We’re paying her student loans on two degrees that have proven to be worthless. We have tried to find a lawyer to talk to about it but to no avail.
Couple that with the fact I’ve been starting to stress over a project at work. I’m the sole sap they got to “volunteer” for the project. More specifically they made it look like cookies and candy to a small kid, but the deeper I get into the project the more I’m discovering it was a “ruse”. The project idea is awesome, I love the potential, their solution and route sucks. I’m now spending time and effort to try and make what’s best for all parties involved happen. Let’s just say this involves me expending a lot of effort and doing things well above my pay grade without any promise of compensation. Worse yet my whole effort can just be brushed aside and deemed the irrelevant work of some inexperienced engineer. It is de-motivational at times to say the least and some of the people I used to work with are starting to notice my frustration. It’s the classic business managers can’t see or understand why doing X would be better in the long run, instead they want to copy Y since that will leverage our existing work. Y was developed by another group and never intended to work in this role.
So all this extra stress has finally done something that I don’t remember ever happening before. Within a month I have gotten sick a second time. Normally I will only get sick maybe once a year. Last time I really got sick like this was just before my dad passed away. When I started getting sick this time it is quite familiar in feeling and I’m reasonably sure I am having a Mono flare up due to stress. I was struggling to stay awake today and mid-last week I had some other symptoms that I ignored but it all fits together now.
So there it is, I have a trifecta of stress that is at this point literally causing me to be ill. As I can control the first one, albeit only somewhat, I can do things to help limit the stress created by it. There’s not much else I can do about the other two. I like writing stuff up, but lately I find myself getting angry and frustrated as I do so. I’ll try and put up unrelated stuff but I make no guarantees.